7 weeks ago my life derailed.  7 weeks ago I was sitting at the doctor’s office in tears, devastated over what was to come.  7 weeks ago I was unsure of the present, let alone the future.

For awhile, I thought about ‘what have I done to deserve this’ or ‘why me’? I give everything I can to my relationships, my career, and my community, I am a do-gooder, so why am I being punished?

We truly live in an imperfect world.  Everyday life just… happens.

I am generally a positive person, but sometimes staying positive is easier said than done.  Who wants to be one of those ridiculously positive and happy people, who never let anything faze them. Ew, not me. Showing emotion, shows character.  But as much as life can throw you curve balls, it’s important to maintain optimism.

A lot has changed in 7 short weeks.  I have learned an immense amount about myself and the people that surround me.  I have made new friends, people I am so proud to have in my life.  I have taken a step back from the regular routines of life.  People have always told me that when they look at my schedule, they are immediately exhausted.  I have learned that it is important to slow down.  I have learned to be calm.

I told myself that when August started, I would start over.  A new month would mean positive change, fantastic opportunities, etc etc.  Well completely the opposite happened and I felt defeated again.  Last Thursday, I had a wake-up call.  My life reinforced to me that I am a fighter.  I felt my strength coming back. I felt excited to tackle these challenges.

I have discovered new priorities and purpose.  I have become more resilient.

I am focused on living in the present.

Life can be an uphill battle.  There will always be good days and bad days.

I am well aware that today will be challenging.  I have been mentally preparing for today for weeks.  Today will be completely out of my control.  Today my strength will be proven. ❤

“Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved.” – Helen Keller

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