starting over

20 years from now, I want to look back on my life and say, “I had the time of my life.”  My 20’s were everything I hoped and imagined them to be.  July has been an absolute whirlwind.  I shed a ridiculous amount of tears.  Both my emotions and life have been all over the place – and not really in a good way.  Absolutely everything that has happened is part of life, it just didn’t fit into the “Jill-has-life-figured-out-and-everything-will-always-be-awesome” plan. :)

I have been counting down the days till August.  I felt that August would be an opportunity to start over, to begin again.  A new month could provide me with a new outlook.  A new month could give me hope again.

For the past year or so, I have subscribed to MSN’s Astrocenter daily horoscopes.  Generally they are pretty ridiculous and give you a good laugh, but today’s made me smile:

Your horoscope for August 2, 2010

Get things started, Jill. You have so many fantastic ideas running around in your head that really, the hardest thing now is for you to choose which one to pursue first. Things that involve your creativity and sensitivity are likely to be most appealing to you at this time. Give some strength to your heart, which is normally seen as being tender and over-sensitive. Declare yourself a symbol of bravery, and go for the gold.

Quite a few people in my life know that I set goals at the start of the year.  8 monster goals that revolved around work, personal, and health.  I have achieved 4 of them and I’m pretty confident if I get back on track, the rest will come too.  I called 2010, the year of possibilities.  2010 was supposed to be about change, positivity, and success.

It’s time.  It’s time to accept all that has happened and move on with my life.  Now is the time to take risks.  To push the boundaries.

I’m excited for what’s to come.  I am anticipating some big changes to my career.  I am a strong believer in mentorship and networking, therefore I’ve booked some informational interviews with very successful HR professionals in Calgary.  I have applied to volunteer as a Mental Health Youth Educator with the Canadian Mental Health Association – fingers crossed.  My official debut as a model :S and the BIG ONE artbook (aka FEMME 2010) launch party is in the works.  I am going to be doing another photoshoot with Madi from Of Storms Creative Studios (stay tuned!).  Oh yes, I am also going to a pole dancing and sensual floor work class ;) – thanks to my girlfriend, Jenn, bidding on the silent auction at last year’s Rethink Romp.  I have a pile of good books to read.  I’m getting back in touch with people I have missed having in my life. ❤

August will be the month of new adventures and opportunities.  It’s time to keep my eyes wide open.

We all deserve the absolute best.  How are you planning on making the most of this month?


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