Run Away and Hide

When I’m overwhelmed, the #1 thing I always want to do is run away and hide. I want to curl up in a ball, with my head under the covers and wait for the overwhelm to pass.

Last week was a bad week. My 27 years on this planet have taught me that — bad happens. Every week can’t be perfect. With bad and good — comes learning. And learning is the goal right?

Regardless I defaulted to my comfort zone — the little girl that gets overwhelmed by bad — she runs away and hides.

On Thursday I walked away from social media. Yep, no Facebook, no Twitter, no Instagram. On Sunday I flew to Palm Springs. I put my iPhone on airplane mode and off I went to the land of hot.

I left the world behind me with hopes of figuring life out.  I wanted to gain clarity on what was important, who was important and most important of all — why.

I learned a few things:

  • You can’t figure out life in 4 days
  • You can’t figure much out running away from your problems

When you head to the land of hot, you generally — sun, sleep, read, eat, drink and do nothing. Well that’s exactly what I did. The 40 degree heat filled my lungs and brought me peace. I spent my days in Palm Springs calming the hell down and taking a moment to myself. One might call it a — ME-cation.

Surprise surprise I returned home just as lost as when I left…! There’s gotta be some good tho — Right? Right? Yep, I was rested, brown, tackled 3 books {Crush It – Gary Vaynerchuk, Linchpin – Seth Godin, Fire Starter Sessions – Danielle La Porte} — and no more damn tears.

It’s been 11 days… I thought I would be ready to be back. But I’m not.

0 Comments

  1. Jeff May 20, 2012

    Welcome home – If you’d like grab a coffee (or perhaps one thing stronger) tmrw let me know.

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  2. Sue Dickie May 21, 2012

    Good for you no social media! Maybe you need a longer break from it? Just a suggestion. Good luck and keep up your running, that’s what has helped me from going crazy all these years!

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    • Jillian Walker May 21, 2012

      I was terrible at running in the California heat. 35 degrees at 6am! I’m back to the grind tho. Ran 12k on Saturday. Need to work on intervals and hills in order to make it through the half! Thx for the well wishes Sue. It’s hard to walk away from social media when you need it to do your job. Pretty sure I’m going to have to be back this week.

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