Peace Comes From Within

Me at 28

I took today for me.

I’m not sure what I accomplished. Perhaps nothing.

Tonight I went out for groceries and when I got home, I caught my reflection in the mirror.

I paused and thought… I like who I’m becoming.

For the majority of my life, I’ve been trying to be more, I’ve been trying to meet the expectations of others. I’ve been constantly telling myself — strive higher… you haven’t achieved enough, you aren’t good enough {badass self-limiting beliefs up in my brain}.

Over the last three months, I’ve taken time for me. Life rattled me up and forced me to re-think where I was headed, and more importantly, why?

I started to explore what really gets me going and out of bed in the morning. I’ve learned that education and communication are core to my being.

I’ve realized that the feeling of overwhelm is in my control. I choose what I’m involved with, how I handle situations and where I spend my time.

I’ve taken more time outs since October, then I’ve probably taken in my life. I’ve chosen to ignore my phone, ignore email, ignore the training schedule. I’ve cancelled on events. I’ve gone against my schedule. I’ve gone weekends without leaving my house.

I’ve gained much appreciation for silence — and learned the importance of taking time for me.

Both giving and receiving have their place in the world — and I’ve accepted that I need both. I have to invest in myself in order to be a support system to those around me.

I’m a bundle of energy who loves to teach, travel and learn. I’m always late, highly opinionated and often disorganized. I’m not perfect and never hope to be.

Tonight I had a moment. That moment when you accept who you are and where you’re headed.

“Learn to accept and appreciate each aspect of who you are: all your strengths and weaknesses; the parts you love as well as those you dislike, and all the mistakes and triumphs. It’s this complicated mixture that makes you unique – and that’s definitely a fact worth celebrating.” – Scott McIntyre

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  1. Sue Dickie February 3, 2013

    You are amazing Jillian Walker! “That moment when you accept who you are and where you’re headed” is something that many never achieve. Bravo!

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